One day you’re going to see her holding hands with someone who took your chance. She won’t even notice you because she’s too busy laughing with the stupid jokes he makes. And it will burn your heart seeing that beautiful smile on her face and realizing that you’re not the reason anymore. And then it will finally hit you: it was her, it was always her.
(via c-oquetry)

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Is it worth it??

Sometimes we have to ask ourselves,
Is it really worth it?

Family, friends, money…Love.

Family grow older, they move on, have families of their own.
Friends stab you in the back.
No matter how much money you have, it can’t make you happy.

And love…we’ll love rips you into pieces.
It tears at your heart and waits for you too bleed.
Trying to come up for air but it pulls you deeper.
Love…drowns you.

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Hows Everyone?

Hello my lovely followers!

Just updating that everything is good with me,

Im applying for a part time job tomorrow. My amazing man hasnt left me yet after the hell iv put him through so thats always a good sign!!

Everyday im finding new things to fall in love with!

How is each and every one of you?? Would love to hear back from you all (:

am i dead yet?

As my day went by
the pain got worse
fighting all the time
all i ever do is try,
i gave in to my demons
as i swallowed the last pill
hoping i wouldnt wake
so everyones life culd begin,
i dont remember much
my thoughts slipping away
opening my eyes as im
drinking thick black goo,
so sad to be alive.

As Sadness Fades, Evil Surrounds Me

I feel happy.
I meet some1 tht makes me laugh.
I feel good inside.
Im nt hungry anymore so iv lost weight.

People tel me im looking to skinny.
They lecture me i need to eat more.
Theyr suprised as the numbers on the scales go dwn.
They think i need help.

Something dies…and another is re-born.

The Cycle of Depression

You come to a point in your life where you just want it to be over, you go to commit suicide but get caught, then get sent to a mental ward for two weeks. Professionals come in and out of your room trying to talk to you and find out whats wrong. Your medication gets increased 3 times the amount you had before. You meet some cool people…and some crazy ones too. You even get a new diagnosis you didn’t know you had.

Then by the end of two weeks you feel a little better and start to think ‘hmm maybe that was my low and now im going to be alright’. You finally get to leave the ward and you feel confident about how things are going to change. You quit your course, move houses, towns. The first week you feel good since your not stuck in a room for 24 hours a day.

But as time goes on and the weeks go by, you start feeling low again. You start doubting yourself, sleep turns into none, you feel tired, become withdrawn and feel depressed about everything. And soon enough, the thoughts of suicide re-enter your mind…

And the cycle starts again…

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